Here we go..

Soccer is a terrific sport, whatever pent up frustration, stress, emotions, tension and etc I had to release was just blasted away today man. Soccer is the ultimate tonic for a post exam activity. Esp when u enjoy the game. Its true!! U just burn sweat and drive all that aggression into scoring goals and destroyin the opponents. Football is football. The gods of football must have been happy today. We played a solid game with passing, movement and finesse. Just need that extra dose of fitness to aid me in lastin the whole game.

Anyway, my timetable for the next semester is out. I am confused right now on what to do. After enjoyin a 4 day week this sem, i got all 5 days burnt next sem. Gotta figure out what i need to do to solve that issue. Lets see how it goes.Gotta ask around. 5 core modules.

Before that, Punjab here i come. Will be goin for a 2 week community project in India this fri, cant wait for it man. Its gonna rock. Its abt time i forgot abt myself and think abt others. Just helpin others and adding a bit of laughter and humour in their lives is enough for me. I am do gonna more than that if possible. Life is abt helpin others and yourself.

Just a point of observation. Pple who gloat abt their weaknesses and strengths are just insecure. They need a sense of security, assurance to ease their doubts. So the next time someone feels terrible or great abt a certain issue or quality, tell them its gonna be alright and in the end, u will still be successful.

Dilemma..

Hmmm.. Now i am in a fix.. What do undergrads do during the mid-year break.. I mean.. i know all that studyin has taken a toll on me and my mental capacity... but something needs to be done.. gotta do somethin.. gotta be something. gotta move it.. and get up and going.. aiyah.. somethin is there to be done...

Lets just dance for now..

Exams are out, Manish is in!!!

THis is the way to celebrate when an exam is over..Switch on the music to a full blast.. Wind down the windows, down the PIE, and tell every ass and traffic policeman that i have a right to speed and drive the car the way i want it.. i am goin to burn the road.. and this is exactly waht i did..today after exams were over.. i just let loose la. i needed that explosion. release all that studyin vibes and pent up frustration.. i Needed to crash and burn..burn!!!! all those books.. anyway hall stay was fun.. my first night at ntu!! ITs been 3 weeks of brain cramp, damage, mind numbing madness, think of as many as ways that is inhuman to put a 21 year old through.. this is terrible.. i have never felt like life has been so mundane, stale and just so bleady useless.. i mean its been atrocious.. if not for the friends i was studyin with at times, my family and cousins, the fellows of the punjab trip,my soccer khakis, my music, i would have lost all contact with the outside world.. I have been thru mental torture and back. This is not right.. This is definitely not right.. I feel like just exploding within. when it came to the final exam and when i was done with it.. it felt like an anti-climax.. like it did not seem right.. i mean.. where has the fun of a post exam celebration gone to.

If i had it my way, i would dance out of the exam hall. doing bhangra all.. and shouting "Masta masta masta kalandar with my hands in the air and just screaming my heads off..Instead of that happening, i just felt at east and finally felt like i have been freed by the final whistle. i can think.. i can live my life again.. i can breathe again.. i need my soccer, i need my music,i need my space, i need my life back.. i as of today will not enter NTU again for until 6 weeks later.. NTU might be fun when u are with friends and all.. but come exam period, it becomes a studyin haven.. u feel like ur friends are no longer ur friends, they have become members of some other planet...u urself become another person.. u feel deprived. u feel like u have been cheated.. u feeel like u wasted ur life away.. Now i am gonna go to Punjab and just leave all this urban jungle behind.. i wanna go to the country side and feel like a villager and tend to my farm.. i wanna work.. i wanna give back to society.i wanna make it as fruitful and enriching as life is meant to be. i am not goona be selfish, egoistic.. make a change, for now, tmr, and forever!!!

Manish. the B student, so far

Well after reading up on the latest results statisticss of the PSLE kids, highest got a 294 for PSLE with 4 A stars.. I mean come on this is the way to go, i have seen many cases whereby students ace their PSLES and finally walk down the slippery slope and try their many ways to balance studies and everythin non studyable.. Now the point i am tryin to put across to all fellow PSLE students this year, those who got Bs and Cs, i am happy for u all now.. coz u gonna get the As sooner or later.. everyone has an A quota that they have to use up...

Look at me, its been 5 long years since the last time i have ever got an A for any exam be it a major exam or mid term paper... 5 years!!! I am turning out to be the B student.. and currently enjoyin it... coz i am on the cusp of A hood and on the brink of fallin to C hood. Its living the life of a marginal student. Actually,realistically speaking, i used up my A quota very early in life with gettin As for PSLE and O's such that it dried up by the time I hit TJC. So now i have been using my Bs lately, a grade which I have abundant supply... So now, whats the plan and motive.. well right now, its all abt getting that first A ever for the first time in the 5 years...

So Manish, u know after all whats said and done, its time to either polish up my B image or dump it for the welcome of the all new hip and happening A image. we will see.. coz when u got a B image consistently for the past 5 years, it shows 2 things, u have the potential to hit A hood or u have hit the max already... so think abt it folks while i think abt this Natasha who got a 294 and 4 A stars for her PSLE, i wish to congratulate her and her parents for the wonderful result, coz i believe that for her family like most other families with kids sittin for the PSLE, is a combined effort. The student is merely the messenger, the true heroes are the parents and the amt of cash splashed on all the tuition teachers.. All hail the arrival of the new kid on the block, the B student. Lets jhoom!!!

Manish, The "B" Student, 5 years and counting..

Thought of the day..

When it comes to good food, pls pay blindly and smile. When its comes to other things, pls dont smile and pay blindly. There is a difference.

Family Drama...

If at anyone time one thinks that family issues can be so painful and be so out of our scope of thinking and force u to think of leaving ur home and runnin away and live in a singles pad, then i guess one should watch 7th Heaven which airs everyday Sunday Morning at 10am. Its a family drama that is filled with all kinds of family problems & tremendous amt of patience and care and skill is required when dealing with a family member... sometime time will soothe the pain and heal the wound.. but ultimately, whats most important is that u speak ur thoughts out aloud. Coz communication is so crucial..For friendship, for family and forever. I dont know why i felt like writing all this but just felt that sometimes shit happens and when shit happens, u gotta stand up and smell the shit no matter how gross and disgusting it can be.. Shit happens for a good reason and u gotta know how to clean it up.. Here goes for a life of good shit and even happier days trying to clean up the shit..

P.S. shit is definitely used as a metaphor here, pls dont get any smelly ideas.

Glory Glory Man Utd

This is a video to wet all those Man Utd fans who wanted to relive those past goals, successes, victories and back from the agonies of defeat to the brink of victory. In the midst of my exam fever, which is quite high right now, its a video like this that helps me going.. so sing along with me..Glory Glory Man Utd.. When the Reds go marchin on on on... If only I was studyin at the University of Manchester right now, then would not even need to tune in to youtube.com.. I would just need to breathe the air of Manchester to feel the free flowing and attacking vibes of Manchester United Football CLub. Sat morning attack on accts begins..

Feel like dancing...

Then there was Nothing at All.. I like this song only coz of the emotions in this song and not the lyrics.. The lyrics are a real threat to his female fan base..

Aiyah..

Mrt Rides are a fun sight.. U have like tonnes of pple crammed up into a carriage.. Then u have me tryin to find some empty space for my eyes to look at so that i dont intrude onto another person's privacy.. my dilemma is

1) I look up too long, i get a neck strain.

2) I close my eyes for awhile, i tend to sway from side to side

I look straight across the carriage, i end up staring at someone

i look down, i might be looking at someone's sms or too close for comfort for that person..

So basically, every few seconds i have to change my eye direction so as to avoid any rude stares and being called a voyeur.. haha.. but that depends.. i mean which lady all dressed up in her office best would not want to be looked.. come on dont tell, u all put on all that make up and spend all that money on ur office clothes to look glamorous at the same time professional but will not entertain any rude stares or gazes.. Come on.. a look or a stare in ur direction is a compliment to ur fashion sense and ur ability to impress.. So dont be taken aback when someone tries to catch a top to toe look of u..

First Exam and much more..

You know what.. the whole experience of sittin for a university exam is so much different.. the fat lady just says to turn over to the front page which signals the start of the exam.. what the hell.. haha.. come on.. u cant possibly include the time taken to write my matriculation number into consideration as well rite... power la.. then another thing is that almost everyone is quiet after the exam papers are collected.. woah.. we used to make so much of noise back then in our O levels and A levels or maybe not.. oh well.. congrats Manish.. First exam of my uni life is over.. at the same time.. my bro is takin his second last exam of his uni life!!! haha.. wow..Information Technology is a wonderful module with wonderful terms and wonderful pple.. but i am just not that wonderful to think abt IT in such a wonderful manner.. but u know what.. IT is here to stay.. and i guess.. yeah u know what i am tryin to say rite..

Another point to ponder.. Singapore's current population stands at 4.68 million.. Racial mix stands at 75.2% Chinese, 13.6% Malays, Indians 8.8%, Eurasians and other minorities form the remaining 2.4%. If only there were an influx of say.. Australians, Filipinos, Alaskans, Martians, Jupiterans, the whole lot man.. the point i am trying to put across here is a rather straightforward one.. when i am asked whether am i from India.. I will stand up, chest pumped out and stomach in and proudly sing "Mari kitalah rakyat Singapura sama sama menuju ke bahagia... " I mean 20 years down the road, i think we will all be proud of our culture and roots and social fabric of our country.. Currently not so much.. Coz its a nation in progress.. India and China have been up and runnin for more than 50 years and they have a database of memories and culture and a sense of belongin to the country.. somehow Singapore has indeed proclaimed and proved to be a very safe country free from political strife and much social crime.. But still what else do we want.. Are we as Singaporeans happy.. Am i as a Singaporean male who has given 2 years of his time to serve the country and proudly say " The mud on my face is soil, my country's soil" .. For me my memories are deeply rooted in my days at my neighbourhood playin soccer with the big guys, playing chapteh and sepak takraw in pri sch, throwing ice on the floor and being scolded for littering.. attending family functions, weddings, funerals, fallin into a drain, being a drag queen.. i mean the list is endless but come on la.. its there more to being Singaporean than just exams, studies, work, National Day Parade, Channel News Asia.. everythin follows a flow chart in Singapore. I dont know.. somehow at times.. I have been restricted and compelled to follow the Singaporean way of having to do well for my exams,then job interview then gettin a family.. Govt will shower u with all the baby bonus packages.. then work work work.. Are we set for bigger things... Is there ultimately a need for us to be on this Earth.. I dont know la what i am talking .. I just feel at times.. Singaporean gotta learn how to chill.. or maybe i just think too much or maybe just feel that at times exams can make u think of ur existence and the need to do well for exams.. Go figure.. On another track, For me now.. I see that I am goin to slowly move on to another sport, Ultimate Frisbee. Soccer has been in my blood since i was born and it will always be.. But as u grow older.. I feel that my legs cant take it anymore.. but I still wanna persevere and score that goal..

Was just playing just soccer just now and i was outrun by this young kid.. i felt terrible.. i mean i have been outrun this badly for a long time.. The winds have changed.. Its time to buck up and improve.. Everything has to improve.. Everything is worth living for.. Just ask that young kid who outran me.. he wanted to prove a point to the big guy who tried to bulldoze him.. Gonna make it count.. Ole ole ole ole ole ole...

Personality Profile..

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Enough is enough - and you feel that you've had enough for a while. You don't need any more battles. You just would like to be able to shout 'stop' and experience a little peace and calm - even if it be only for a little while. This doesn't mean that you need to cut yourself off from the rest of the world - it just means that you are seeking some respite, some physical or emotional relaxation that could release some of the the tension and possibly reduce the internal conflict. You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from! Everyone has to compromise at times and circumstances are such that at this time you are feeling the need to do just that. Put all of your hopes on the back burner and let matters flow for a time - forgo some of the things you want. The good times are just around the corner. Stresses resulting from a recent disappointment have led to considerable trepidation. It would seem that there seems to be so much left undone. Everything surrounds you with that air of uncertainty. You badly need to feel a sense of security and whatever it takes to protect you against further disappointment. At this particular time you doubt that things could be any better in the future but you are sticking to your guns and refusing to take advice from any source. Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety and you are distressed by the lack of any close and understanding relationships. You feel you are not appreciated by those who matter to you. You are attempting to escape into a world on which you can relax and feel at ease. I would give it a 80 percent.

Exam Moments..

Somehow or rather.. rather than being involved in the daily rush to finish tutorials, lectures and project.. The Exam period is the best time to reflect on the past.. Typical example 1) just realised that one of my notes was filled with all scribbles and really terrible writing.. then it hit on me.. this was the seminar that i just couldnt help but to doze off.. that's IT seminar and BIZ law lecture for me.. but still.. I always made it a point to stay awake during my Accts tutorial... coz the tutor is tryin really hard to convey her message across.. but other than this moments... this exam period has really forced me to think really hard abt a few issues that will help me down the road.. coz reflections always lead to resolutions!!

Then again.. I just cant help to think where I will be 5 years from now.. I know its crucial to not think abt the future coz the present is the most important.. but seriously i wanna a think.. whats gonna drive me forward a year from now.. everyone has a passion, a aim, a drive, a motive, a reason to live, a goal to live for.. For me, I strive to test my limits.. I dont wanna to be trapped within Spore.. I need to expose my weaknesses and maximise my strengths.. I wanna make full use of my time here.. Pple derive such pleasure from simple acts of life like huggin their close ones, or spending the night talkin abt everythin under the sun.. then there are those who feel that pleasure is only felt when u achieve ur first million or when u jump off a cliff.. as in bunjee jumping.. I mean to different pple.. there are definitely different ways that make u satisfied and motivate u to work harder.. Somehow.. Emotions form the backbone of a human being. At times, it drives u forward, at times it forces u to think and reflect. Gotta respect that esp.. Everybody wants their private space.. Courage and perseverance are 2 virtues that should run deep.. Courage to do an activity that u know u will fail.. and perseverance coz u know u will keep on doin that activity until u become a master of it..

Life is abt challenges and emotions. Face and Feel it. No better way to enjoy life than to challenge urself and experience the whole set of emotions that comes with it.

Football the way its meant to be played.

Tonight in a matter of few mins time.. yeah cant wait for it la.. Battle of the titans. Battle of the top 2 teams in the league currently. Arsenal vs Man Utd. This will be the game for the artists who would love to see the true art of football being played out on the pitch. Although arsenal lacks the punch in terms of physicality, Man Utd makes up for it with a mixture of both finesse and brawn. But nothing discounts Arsenal and their way of playing, they play soccer the way its meant to be played. The way or style that is fittin for any league in the world. However, as the Chelseas and Greeces have proven, soccer can be won thru sheer discipline and hard labour, that is to bore the opponent to death and score the killer goal in the last min thru a toe poke. Guys, thats not soccer. Thats bullshit!! U wanna watch a good game of soccer, then dont miss out this game. The Red Devils vs The Gunners. I have more respect and less hatred, infact no hatred at all ever since Patrick Viera, Lauren, Ljungberg, Ashley Cole have left Arsenal. Arsenal are a team born to play god-like soccer. Man Utd are a team that can play soccer to please the gods as well as the blue collar workers. Man Utd definitely throws in more crosses into the penalty box than Arsenal do. Thats what i love abt the game. One goal post, so many ways to carve out a chance. The unpredictability, the animosity, the respect, the hope, the arrogance, the glory, the ultimate goal. Gotta watch the big game. U just have to watch it. A game to please the gods of football.